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[Nov. 15th, 2006|11:45 pm] |
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apparently I'm not going to college.... |
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| QUESTION! |
[Nov. 2nd, 2006|08:31 pm] |
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on a scale of 1 to 10 how shy would you rate me? 1 being not shy at all and 10 being so shy you wouldnt want to take me anywhere. |
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| Turns Out I Make A Hott Pirate |
[Oct. 29th, 2006|09:32 pm] |
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So on friday i went to a halloween/graduation party for this girl Kristen that i work with. It was fun and there were fair amount of people there, including sarah, for all y'all who dont know the story shes a lesbian friend of people from work and she thinks im hot....yeah....jim was there too but he didnt even stay in the same room as me for more than a minute so forget about us talking. but whatever i dont really care...obviously i care but theres nothing i can do so i just have to let it go..... I did have fun though, even though everyone thought that i was completely miserable and i feel really bad about it because i was having fun but i am shy i dont mingle and like ive said a million times i dont talk to people they talk to me, ill hold conversation with anybody as long as they initiate it....but even with everyone telling me how miserable they thought i was i think the best part of the night was when sarah came up to me and was like "you make a hot pirate" and then later her girlfriend came up to me (well techniquely i walked up to her and the people she was with but whatever) and said "you look really good tonight" and i dont think ive ever met her before so i was kinda thinking how does she know i dont look like this everyday? but yeah so i guess this is gods way of telling me i should finally just give up on boys and become a lesbian.....dont get me wrong it does seem tempting at this point but i still got hopes for brian....but i suppose if that falls through....who knows whatll happen...... |
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| much better |
[Oct. 24th, 2006|08:48 pm] |
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So yesterday i get an im from Jill asking me if i was in love with Jim which led to her asking me all these questions that really didnt make much of a difference but anyway the point is that after talking to her and finding out everything that he had told her about me and how he made me out i was totally able to just let it go and be like fuck him he doesnt have any control over me or my emotions anymore YAY ME! |
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| life fucking sucks |
[Oct. 22nd, 2006|05:50 pm] |
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Yeah so heres the deal, you all pretty much know the Jim situation...we sorta went out for two days and now he wont even talk to me...well i asked him why he wont talk to me and he said "im not allowed to" now im like what the fuck....ive given him every oppertunity to tell me this before i kept asking him "why are we not allowed in the same room together?" "why are you treating me badly?" "why wont you talk to me?" i kept fucking asking and he would never respond, not a fucking word in reply. and now like 2-3 weeks later he finally tells me that its cuz jill wont let him. You know what fuck jill shes a bitch. Why is it that shes allowed to go out and fuck all these guys but hes not allowed to even acknowlege the fact that im even in the same room with him. The worst part is is that shes checking up on me. She asks people from work if i talk to him or if we hang out or other pointless shit like that. and then she has the nerve to be like "i dont know why im so nice to that girl, im just a nice person." shes not going to the holloween party because im gonna be there....this whole situation has really thrown me through a fucking loop. I cant stand it... my mother and i have been in constant battle because im in such a fucked up mood to begin with. So ive had enough, i left....sort of....im staying at my grandparents for the next couple of days just so i cant get it together. ARG! FUCK LIFE! |
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| so heres my problem... |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|07:36 pm] |
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Ok so im thinking about quiting Papa Gino's cuz basically the only appeal of the job is being able to hang around with Jim but thats getting a bit old for me... I cant stand the fact that he wont give me a clear cut answer as to whether or not he likes me. If he would just tell me he didnt like me then i would be able to just live with it and move on but he wont so im left with this lingering hope that maybe today maybe this week hell finally tell me he likes me......never gonna happen but thats how i feel...so heres the deal i want to take a little vote....Tell me wether or not i should quit if its no i want a suggestion as to what i should do instead |
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| so i guess im a player... |
[Sep. 16th, 2006|09:45 pm] |
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So first full week of school down just another 50 to go....
This weekend's cool though yesterday i had a "date" i picked emily up and we hung out for a while at the mall before everyone else showed up. we did eventually meet up with them at TGIFridays where the gropeing began....lets just say chris and i almost went to japan....of course then everyone got jeleous of the attention i was giving chris because they all love me which is totally understandable but i can only love so much...Anyway that was fun....
today i went to work i was scheduled 12-6 but ended up staying till about 8 but whatever it happens....a lot... Jim wasnt there though, he was supposed to be but he was at the medfield day thing being a cop (thats his other job .... he doesnt just go out in a cop outfit to be sketchy...) but he did show up at about 5 so i got to see him briefly cuz it got wicked busy we did talk alittle before i left but thats pretty much it....I told Jess about my liking of him which was probably stupid but we were talking about her boyfriend who is jims friend so just as old. so i wanted to talk to.... Jess is really nice to me which is cool cuz before we never really talk but now it seems like we are kind of friends which sounds really really REALLY sad but its neat because as far as i know everyone at work likes me but none of them really are friends with me but for instance jess invited me to hang out with them tonight after close which is cool and ill probably go.
Its really kind of sad that all i ever talk about now is work and the people i work with....yeah im cool....i have a life.... |
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| I'm Such An Idiot! |
[Sep. 6th, 2006|02:22 pm] |
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Ok so for all of those who have not heard the story here it is....
Monday Catie C., Sherelle and I went on an excursion to Emrald Square Mall in N. Attleborough. We had some laughs but mostly we were all still tired from the fun weekend we had at camp. But I did end up buying a new outfit so thats a plus. Anyway on the way back to my house we passed papa ginos and I decide that today was the day, I was going to tell Jim I liked him! So we get to my house and i change into my new outfit, sherelle does my hair, i did my make up and we were off. We got there and ordered our food and went to sit down and it was kind of busy so i didnt do anything and then when it quieted down a bit he was gone. So caties sitting there saying if you dont tell in the next five minutes im gonna do it for you. so i get up (Jims still not back) and i try to talk to brett (hes the only one who knows the real reason i quit) I figured id run the idea by him and see what he thought i should do. But he was busy so i went back to our table. Sherelle sang along to the jutbox and we headed for the door. Now we are in the car and Catie and Sherelle both are like "i cant believe you didnt tell him" and im like "hes not here! we can wait for him if itll make you happy." so we decide to wait. I have to pee so i get out of the car and go in and on my way out of the bathroom this guy walks by and does this little double take type thing and says, "Hey, how you doing?" and i just give him a smile and wave and keep walking and as im walking towards the door i wave goodbye to brett and then we have a little dialoge:
brett: "Where you going?"
Me: "Home probably"
brett: "Why?"
Me: "I dont know *shrug*"
brett: "What did you want before?"
Me: "I wanted to talk to you about something"
brett: "Well, go to the door"
(Its like a back door but not its like an employee entrance.)
so im like ok and i go out side and head towards the door and as im doing this Jim has parked and is headed towards the same door. So we met at the door and stood there for a minute and i pointed awkwardly inside in bretts general direction....more dialoge:
Jim: "What does that mean?" (he repeats my motion)
me: "Im waiting for brett" (even though i wasnt waiting i was supposed to go in)
Jim: "How come?"
Me: "I wanted to talk to him about something."
Jim: "What?"
Me: "Umm nothing just tell him to forget it."
Jim: "Why?"
*long pause*
Me: "Ok....Ill tell you....i dont want to but... *longer pause, heart racing, knees shaking* I have a crush on you..."
Jim: (i dont really remember what he said it was either "You do?" or "really?")
Me: "Yeah...I'm sorry"
Jim: *slight laugh* "Why are you sorry?"
Me: "Because its awkward ... and wierd...isnt it? I mean tell me its awkward!"
Jim: "Nah its alright"
Me: "I'm gonna go now...i got to go..."
so i turn to leave and he says "Bye Analisa" and i start to walk faster and the best part is that when i get to the car Sherelle and catie WONT let me in! they keep yelling "did you tell him?" and i keep saying through gritted teeth "Yes now let me in the fucking car!"..........they did eventually let me back in and i died a little inside from the utter embarressment of that night.
Even better news i get to work with him tomorrow.....how lovely... |
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| I've become boring in my old age |
[Aug. 9th, 2006|02:24 am] |
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so today(yesterday) was stupid -
my uncle ended up in the hospital and i went over to babysit - that was all fine and well but i took my cuzin to a museum and we ended up getting lost and it took us 2 hours to figure out how to get back -
meanwhile i get a call from work asking if i would come in to close - of course i say yes - so i have just enough time to get home from my aunts, change, and leave for work - work wasnt so bad no real complaints - I even got invited to go with people to 'The EndZone' which is a bar/motel and they have kareoke on tues and thurs so thats when everyone goes -
I went - but not before i did major negotiating with my mum - A girl from work drove me and when i got there everyone was like 'oh my god, Analisa?' like this is the last place they'd expect to see me - so everyone starts drinking...and drinking....my boss is completely shitfaced at this point - not me though i didnt even get a soda - so i told my ma id be home at 12 and when 12 rolled around everyone was just getting in to the kareoke and could not be persuaded to leave - mom calls - not very happy -
so i get shes not happy with me being late so i call my bro would he come get me? No said that he had to get home and that he was at least an hour away so it would make no sense - so i say fine and i go back to watching the crew down a few beers and start singing and dancing - Jim gave me a puppy he won out of the claw machines - we finally leave at one when the bar closes -
It takes us forever to leave though - lots of hugging and saying good byes - Oh and one of the guys i was hanging with said that i reminded him of his little sister and his sister (not the one i remind him of) agreed and i was just like gee thanks thats just what a girl wants to hear - so anyway on the way home susan and nicole (my desinated drivers) first praise me for being a good worker then start asking me questions about my ethnicity then pull out the weed and start smoking - they offered but i turned them down i just wasnt intrested -
I've become so boring! all i do is work and ride. Nothing else, even when i have a chance i just ignore it. Someone shoot this imposter and find the real me! |
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| Long Time... |
[Jun. 29th, 2006|09:14 pm] |
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yo people im back...well sorta. I've been in New York for the past week and dispite the hot and disgusting weather its been pretty awesome and Andreo's (My LITTLE bro!) here too. We went to central park and i got to see the carousel, you know the one that holden takes pheobe to and the one the guy who shot lennon went to because holden went there. It was exciting. We also went to the central park zoo and i got to see the polar bears i wanted to see the red pandas but they were hinding very sad. We were planing to go to the Bodies Exbit but Andreo didnt want too i think he was creeped out by the whole 'seeing dead people on display' thing...i dont know why it would have been awesome. i did something yesterday that was kinda awesome but at the same time kinda bad but thats for another time. today we went to Cony Island with alessandra's (shes my sis who lives in new york if you didnt know) gay friend Ted. He was soo much fun i LOVE ted. although he made me go on the wonder wheel which is a ferris wheell except the 'cages' that your in MOVE! they are on a track and they move around as the wheel turns it was horrifing i thought i was gonna die. we got alot of stupid shit from the arcade. I love it here! so much FUN! oh and when i get back we are soo throwing a huge ass party cuz im so in the mood!! WOOT! |
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